Sara Nave Fisher

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Finding Junia

Junia

Junia was the first person in the Bible who lied to me. Well, to be fair, it wasn't really Junia who lied to me; it was the other people who lied to conceal her from me. I had been struggling with the issue of women in ministry for years. I come from a background that not only doesn't ordain women, but doesn't allow women deacons and elders, which does not allow women to collect offering or teach men older than 12. When I was in elementary school and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I had an answer all prepared: "A pastor's wife."See, I felt the call to ministry at a young age. I mean, very young. I was four. I have a distinct memory of sitting in the pew during a Sunday evening service, listening to a missionary presentation. I thought, "I want to tell people about Jesus!" From that day until this day, I've never questioned that I was called into vocational ministry; I just knew.But the only way available to me was to be a pastor's wife, and that's what I did, by marrying an Army chaplain. I checked the boxes and was living the life to which I was called. Except, things are rarely that easy, are they? What followed was a life that didn't line up with what I thought life would be like. I began seeing the cracks in my theology, in a version of Christianity that said to women: We don't want to say you're second-class, but...I knew - I KNEW - all of the biblical reasons why women were created to be helpmeets. I could use my apologetics skills to articulate the role of women to support the headship of men better than most men I knew. I would tell you that Timothy's mother and grandmother were influential in Timothy's life only because the men in his life slacked on the job (because, clearly, whenever God uses a woman, it's always Plan B...). I would tell you about the requirement of elders to be The Husband of One Wife and could explain both sides of the debate about whether single men and/or divorced men were excluded.I had all the answers...                   ...until I didn't.Junia first exposed that maybe, just maybe, some of my answers were flawed.She is an apostle named in Romans 16:7.Let that sink in. Junia, a woman, is an apostle - an esteemed apostle, at that! The more I read, the more disheartened I was. See, a couple hundred years after Romans was written, church leaders decided that this apostle couldn't have been a woman (at best; at worst, it was a deliberate deceitful choice...)... so they added an sto her name and made her male. For centuries, the Bible was translated hailing Junias - a man.The first time I read about Junia, I felt like I had been punched in the gut, as though I was a victim of some 2000-year long conspiracy. My well-read Bible had failed me. How could I have been lied to all this time? How could they get away with literally replacing the name of a woman with the name of a man? I started questioning all the proof texts I "knew" about women in ministry. The more I learned, the more I realized that there was not just one "correct" way to look at any text - particularly those which have been used to oppress populations for centuries.That's when I knew I needed to follow my calling, not as the "plus one" on my husband's ministry, but on my own. There was more to my decision than just Junia, of course. But when I saw Junia liberated, without that s that made her someone she wasn't and kept her from being who she was, I knew that I could be who I was as well. May 17, the day I write this, is the Feast of St. Junia, a day we commemorate her contributions to Christianity, this esteemed apostle.On this day, I remember all the other women whose contributions were erased from history because of their gender - or the women who were never allowed to make contributions because men would not let them. Today, I gather in my living room with women from my church, talking about faith and love, about church and community. I celebrate the young woman who is graduating from high school, who stood in my church's pulpit two days ago and preached. I continue to work toward ordination and fully am who God has called me to be.I think Junia would be proud.